Fears

8.  I fear that I will not be the mother that I need to be.  I fear that I will fail my children (of which I do not have yet).  I hope and pray that one day I will be able to be a mother and that it will be everything I envision it to be.

7.  I have a fear of bugs.  I know that I am a lot larger than them, but I feel that they are way more powerful than me.  Spiders give me the creeps!  Bees make me scream and run.  Roaches and water bugs give me chill bumps.  I am so afraid of bugs crawling in my mouth and ears when I sleep! AHH! (I promise my house is not infested with bugs!  We have Orkin come to our house monthly to spray because of my fear!)

6.  I have a fear of heights.  Although I have been skydiving and parasailing, I am still afraid of heights.  I feel as though my stomach drops and then I feel nauseated and dizzy anytime I am too far away from Earth!

attempting to give a thumbs up while skydiving

5.  I fear that one day I will get breast cancer. (I wrote about that in my 'secrets' post)

4.  I have a fear that one day I will be extremely overweight.  This fear has not yet made me anorexic, so no worries yet.  I love to eat!

3.  I fear that something bad will happen to Jon when I am not with him.   I am obsessive over telling him I love him before he leaves, and I always want him to let me know when he makes it where he's going.

2.  I have a fear of escalators.  I will ride them, but I have to wait to step on quickly at the right moment.  When I was a child my foot got caught in the side and ripped my shoe to pieces and cut my pinky toe up, that is why I have this fear.

1.  I have a fear of public speaking.  In college I had to take a speech class and I thought it was going to be the death of me.  I made A's on the actual written speech, but I made a C in the class because I cried every time I got in front of the class to speak.  Awful!